Tuesday, March 23, 2021


by John Grauerholz

It is the future that persecutes us. The communitarians would have us break rocks all day long to bring forth a better world in the decades yet to come. Activists for the long-threatened paradise will not leave us alone – these advance-men will harass and hassle us whenever we attempt to enjoy ourselves right now.

It is our successors that oppress us. Like diapered tyrants, our offspring actually expect us to live for them. Do-gooders want us to believe that citizens alive right now must work to perfect a future that will not benefit us in any way – a sort of enslavement of today for the betterment of tomorrow.

It is the next generation that denies us happiness. Having to live for the children only does one thing: ruin existence for the individuals dwelling in the here-and-now. This idea that we need to improve society only has one end result: we cannot fully take any morsel of pleasure in what we manage to scrounge-up somewhere in the present moment.

It is the future that we must resent and envy at all costs. Why should our descendants be given a better life than we were forced to endure? Why should children not be tormented just like every other generation? Why should our progeny not experience the same misfortunes that the busy-bodies have imposed upon us?

After all that we have suffered, it is only right that the world yet to come should be worse, far worse. Why should youngsters be allowed to cavort around in healthy bodies while the afflictions and ailments of old age begin to overtake us? Children deserve a sorrier and shoddier life.

Like the Sword of Damocles, the future hangs above us – threatening severe bodily injury upon us all.


Tuesday, February 2, 2021


by John Grauerholz

“Evil” has nothing to do with ethics whatsoever. Despite what do-gooders might want you to believe, evil has no connection with any moral system. “Right” and “wrong” are simply a matter of convenience: what is beneficial to you in this life is simply not advantageous to other people - and this lack of advantage will be perceived as something evil by ordinary people.

Just as there is a pressure wave that precedes an explosion, so evil is the shock wave of the unconstrained Ego. When a non-conformist becomes ever more egoistic, other people in the vicinity will feel an overwhelming sense of dreariness and dread – and that sensation of dismay is exactly what lesser human beings consider evil.

A do-gooder has innate horror of an independent human being – and the communitarian’s inborn terror makes a solitary human into something wicked. When confronted by the prospect of loneliness, a proper citizen feels a sense of loathing. Malevolence is what the herd intuits while you become ever more selfish and ever more self-focused. An individual completely free of social values is completely sinister. Like all animals, a conforming member of society has an instinctive fear of self-centeredness in a nearby stranger and will react accordingly.

You become an individualist by enhancing, enlarging, enriching the Ego. While there are many ways of augmenting egoism, perhaps the most certain way of expanding yourself is to do everything that society already defines as wanton and wicked. If you stubbornly transgress every societal norm, you can actually back-engineer individualism.

If you obstinately delve into all that the average humanitarian finds threatening, you will ultimately find your true self, your deep self, your Egoistic Self. All that is prohibited by the good citizens is defined as malicious, and you will find freedom in the depths of such malignancy. When it comes to the dark palace of the ego, sin is the way in.

Wednesday, January 20, 2021


 by John Grauerholz


If you, on a rainy, thundering night, ever dare to look in the mirror - then you, my dear reader, will see a complete failure gazing stupidly back at you. That slobbering, slack-jawed creature gawking from the glass is you. Even if your face were not completely hideous, your acquaintances would still despise & detest you. Even if you had undergone plastic surgery in your younger years, your body would now be just as horrific.

I can assure you that no matter what you might have done in your earlier days, you would still be just as worthless as you are tonight. Even if you did not end-up as a complete embarrassment to your parents, you still would have become just as much a wastrel. Even if you were not a total shame to your family, your presence will still be scorned. No matter how much you could have “bettered” yourself, the end-product would be wholly the same.

Even if you had graduated from a more prestigious college, even if you had found a higher-paying job, even if you had married a more attractive girl, your life right now would be just as miserable. Never forget that even if you made better choices in your past, you still would be suffering just as much. Even if you were a higher-status human being, your daily existence would be just as horrible.

Even if you had taken a different road in life, you would still have arrived at exactly the same dead end. Even if you had found a different path, you would have ended-up at precisely the same chasm.

Even if you were not quite such a loser, you would still be just as loathsome. You cannot escape your fate: you, dear reader, were destined to fail. Nothing could have been done about it. No matter how much you might slog & sweat to fill the void within, you soul will always remain just as empty.